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What can I do for you?
That’s what it’s about, really. Submission may provide me with quite a bit (freedom, well-being, structure, protection and care), but what have I done for Him lately? Well, I don’t expect a standing ovation, but I did initiate sex a few days ago (very unlike me). But mainly this month, I have very subtly been laying groundwork. I wouldn’t call this “topping from the bottom” because I’m not being manipulative and I’m not doing things without permission. As a submissive, I think it’s important to say what I want and need. I’ve asked for more D/s in our daily lives (both in our last counseling session) and during one of…
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Mental Switch – releasing control and managing focus as a submissive
I realized that while I was in control, I was unhappy. I didn’t like being a nag. I didn’t want to have to make all the decisions in a relationship, but I did want a voice. I wanted to feel cared for and respected. I also needed to be vulnerable. –Luna Caruthers I struggle with control. In my daily life, I often find myself fighting to maintain it (of myself and over others). And while I often see it as a necessary part of what I do at work, it exhausts me. It’s difficult to let go of that need to control things, though. Like when you are stuck in…
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Submission Saturday
I’ve been putting out a #submission365 post each day since January 1st, on instagram and on twitter (see the sidebar widgets to follow). The point is to choose something I know I need to reflect on, personally. I haven’t been journaling on the topics myself, mainly because I’ve been putting in the time just getting used to this new morning social media routine. But now that I’ve set myself up well, I think daily written reflections are a good idea. To catch up a bit, let me select a few of the #submission365 posts from the past few weeks that resonate most deeply with me: I think some people feel…
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Hormone Therapy: The Adventure Begins
I’ve done it before…and it didn’t have much of an impact, but I’m trying it again, years later, and I’m hoping for a different outcome (is this the definition of insanity? doing the same thing over and over again hoping for different results?). Yesterday, I went to the gynecologist suggested by our sex therapist, who seems to think getting my hormones under control and getting me off Prozac is going to bring my libido back. The problem is, I only just started taking Prozac (a super low dose) in September. Which really means, that’s not the problem. And the gynecologist didn’t seem to think that was having any impact at all,…
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Submission is new every day
Side note: I time block using Google Calendar to plan my days and weeks out in advance, making sure I’ve made room for all the things I have to do and as many of the things I want to do as possible. Something new I am trying this year is to delete activities/events on my digital calendar as I complete them. It leaves me with a blank calendar at the end of the day, and the past is the past. It seriously makes me a little anxious, as I have never done this. I usually catalogue and sort and keep evidence of everything I do. And yet, there is really…
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I’m going on an adventure!
Find a notebook, any notebook, and open to the first page. Or, open up a new blank document on your computer. That, my friends, is the door to an adventure. In fact, any new beginning is the start to a potential adventure. I love the meme I’ve used for my feature image in this post, because I feel a deep connection to Hobbits. If I were a character in Tolkien’s world, I would definitely be a Hobbit, tucked away in my cozy little home, reading and eating and staying safe. Leaving my comfort zone and heading out into the wild, blue yonder doesn’t always fill me with a sense of…
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Join me in a (re)discovery of submission
Now that I have completed The Submissive Advent Calendar, I’m motivated to continue with Luna Caruthers’ Submissive Reflection: A Journey of Rediscovery and Affirmation. I would love for you to join me and add to the conversation. Sometimes discussing the issues can make them so much more clear and can bring up perspectives we maybe would have overlooked otherwise. You can purchase the guide at the link above and at Amazon. I’m planning to read a chapter each weekend and then write about some of the topics that grab me during the week. This book is appropriate for anyone interested in dedicating or re-dedicating themselves to submission, newbies and long-timers…
