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Sexiness is a State of Mind
It’s easy to explain away (in superficial terms) what does or does not make me feel physically sexy: when I look and feel good in what I’m wearing; when my hair does the right thing; when my make-up just works. But, since sexiness is really a state of mind, a way of thinking, it has less to do with those actual physical things than the way I feel about myself at any given time. And my self-image is usually indicative of my current state of mental health. For example, I could wear the same dress on two different days. One of those days, I might see myself as sexy in…
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Looking Back
I’ve had a love/hate relationship with my body since I can remember caring about it. Pretty much as soon as my boobs popped up and the hair on my legs began to grow, I’ve been self-conscious about some part(s) of it, comparing myself to other girls/women and falling prey to the media expectation of what I “should” look like. Weight? Thigh gap? Cellulite? Stretch marks? Even the color of my skin. I remember being in junior high and high school and being super concerned about how pale my skin was in the summer time. My white friends would wear shorts and be somewhat tan, or at least have a smooth…
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I want it when I’ve had it
So, I’m going to take you down a bit of a rabbit hole today. This morning, I read a January 30th post from Marie Rebel titled “Less Sex, Less Drive” that began by referencing a January 3rd post from Girl on the Net titled “What If I Never Have Sex Again?” This is the quote that Marie opens with: Secondly, I think my sex drive would probably just start to erode. My lust is pretty self-sustaining, in that the more recently I have had sex, the more likely I am to want more sex. As the time passes between shags, whichever part of my brain (or my cunt) is responsible for telling…
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When things are good…
For someone with bi-polar disorder, when things are good, there’s a constant underlying fear. It’s not a matter of if things will stop being good…it’s when. And sure, it’s really easy to say…just stop worrying about it. But for someone who’s been experiencing severe mood changes for more than half their life, that’s just not possible. I’ve even read such advice as: if you’d just stop worrying about the drops, you’d stop having them…it’s the constant focus on mood that causes the drops in the first place. Every day, I track my mood. I try to figure out triggers and avoid them. I try to determine the impacts of weather, the moon,…
