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Sheared
I told him I was ready. Curled up against him, looking up at him through tired lashes, in front a TV we were no longer watching. But 3 months of “letting it go” had created a jungle down there. And I knew I wanted that taken care of before we did anything. I promised Sunday. And today, as promised, I placed the mirror, spread my legs, and took a breath. If nothing else is proof of how off our sex life has been, this is surely it. Like a lawnmower in knee deep, wet grass, I wasn’t even sure my shaver was up to it, and I feared getting my…
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Change
Last night I yawned, and stretched, and he reached over, tweaked my nipple and ruined my stretch. We both laughed…because it’s an inside joke…something he always does (or used to, when we were okay). The night before, he smacked my ass with a wooden spoon (the one he uses to itch beneath his cast) when I got up to refill my drink. Later he mentioned how good it felt to spank me…even if it was just a playful swat in the company of others during the course of our normal family evening. Those little sexual undercurrents that infuse themselves into daily activities are the heartbeat of a thriving sex life.…
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Moonlit
There are a lot of great quotes and poems out there about the positives surrounding the dark. It is the only time we can see the stars, for example. The winter clears the branches and let’s the light in. Darkness appears to be necessary in many ways, even though it often gets a bad reputation for being negative and destructive. I live much of my life in the dark, both literally and metaphorically, but I also, therefore, spend a lot of time emerging…waking up…and learning from the dreams that only make themselves known when my eyes are closed. In the dark, blindfolded by my own ignorance, I search for light…
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Journal 9/23/2019 a.m.
Okay…our 3rd (sadly low) offer on the house came in Saturday and with news that a 4th was coming, they quickly rescinded. The 4th was actually the most decent we’ve had, and it came with a very sweet letter telling us how much they really liked the house and hoped to raise their kids there. They actually put a healthy chunk of change down in earnest, as well. So…looks like things are moving towards a sale again. Thank god. Yesterday pretty much ran away from us. After having been out of town for soccer most of Saturday, we had to make up all our weekend chores, and our son had…
