Yesterday, in The Submissive Advent Calendar, I was to find or create a token to remind myself of my submission.
A simple thing, really. And yet, I struggled with it…reconsidering it throughout the day.
A bracelet? No. Because I am on the computer most of the day, and jewelry on my wrists is bothersome (though maybe that is a good reason to chose it?).
A necklace? Too easy to forget?
Something for my pocket like a coin? Some small thing of value? Something of his?
A background on my phone?
I finally settled on a collection of things, so that I am reminded in small ways through out the day, no matter where I look. A token for my pocket, that I will put on my desk at work, a ring on my thumb (because I will notice it there), a bracelet, because it is a piece of jewelry i normally wear and will be hard to ignore (the possible discomfort is actually a benefit here).
The idea is simply to keep it at the forefront of my mind, so that I am considering my submission on a regular basis. The more I think about it, the more questions and answers I will come up with. And those lead to future action.
I have always felt that this time of year is a time of reflection. A time to consider the year behind me and plan for the year ahead.
As I organize my jumbled thoughts about my relationship, consider where I am headed at work, and make plans for my home and my blog, right now I am just percolating.
And while sitting still with my thoughts, allowing them to just be, sometimes makes me uncomfortable, it is a necessary part of the process.
This is the time for dreams.
It’s okay to stop doing, sometimes, and just be.
I have to remind myself of that.
Because…if we never stop doing, we never have a chance to think, and stopping to think (and dream), is how we change.
When change is necessary, the first step is to stop moving. The second is to dream, the third is to choose a path…sometimes a new one, the fourth is to plan, and the fifth is to start moving again.
This time of year, for me, is all about steps 1-4. And January is about step 5.
So here’s to rest and contemplation. Here’s to going inward. Here’s to quiet.
I raise my cup of coffee in cheers.