The last three weeks have felt like months — our routines changed, our lives contained between the same walls and windows, with very few expeditions in to the outside world.
I’m not a worrier, and I’m not under financial hardship during this “stay at home” order. I’ve had a bit of stress, trying to learn new ways to do my job and connect with people outside of my home. I’ve had to become even more conscious about work/life boundaries, now that people are contacting me via email regarding work around the clock. And, as a person who required routine to create momentum, I’ve had to establish new routines to keep myself and our home from caving in to stagnation.
Our first week at home, I pretty much did nothing. Not knowing how long the “stay at home” order would last and not knowing what the expectation for continuing work would be, I rested on my laurels and spent way too much time on social media.
Week two had me so busy with work, I often had my phone, tablet, and computer doing separate tasks simultaneously for more hours than was healthy. The learning curve was high, and trying to adapt what I do every day into a format that could be readily accessed and consumed by the audience I am beholden to was quite a challenge.
By the third week (last week), I was beginning to settle in…making sure to move every day, turn off my email at the logical end of my work day, go to bed on time, stave off my craving for a drink until after five, take a shower before noon.
This week is “Spring Break” (which is sort of laughable), and though I’m not going anywhere, I realize that I actually still need a break from all that has been happening for the last few weeks. I need to back away and accept that I’ve done the best I can do with what I’ve been given. I need to allow myself to do nothing…which seems weird since it seems like all I’ve been doing is sitting on my ass for three weeks. When I look back, though, at what I’ve accomplished, I’m pretty astounded at my ability to adapt.
Of course, I’m a natural introvert, so being cut off from the world hasn’t been catastrophic for me socially. I connect with my friends online and using apps that allow me to talk to them and see their faces in real time. And I make sure to call my family to check in.
I’m not working this week. And as a workaholic, now that work is at my fingertips all the time…on my phone, in my home office, and waiting…ever-presently in my email inbox, that can be a touch thing to force myself to do…harder in these circumstances, even, since there is no physical distance from my place of work.
Instead of work, I’m writing (which hasn’t been happening a lot since this whole mess began), reading, watching ridiculous television shows with my family, playing board games with my son, and spending some time learning new hobbies. I can’t go anywhere, but honestly, because of my Husband’s job, we don’t normally go anywhere for spring break, anyway.
This week is about slowing down. Because even though it seems like all we’ve done is slow down over the past three weeks, I realize that hasn’t really been the case. Mentally and emotionally, this has been a roller coaster for a lot of us.
We could all use a little comfort (in a cup and elsewhere) right now.