‘Girls of all kinds can be beautiful – from the thin, plus-sized, short, very tall, ebony to porcelain-skinned; the quirky, clumsy, shy, outgoing and all in between. It’s not easy though because many people still put beauty into a confining, narrow box…Think outside of the box…Pledge that you will look in the mirror and find the unique beauty in you.’ – Tyra Banks
I’ll be honest. It’s not always easy to look in the mirror and say, “Damn, you’re sexy!” anymore. It’s even harder when I look back at photos of myself from years ago. Of course, it isn’t fair to expect myself to look 20 when I’m 40+. And even on days when I’m hating what I’ve got, I try to remind myself…this is the body I have, it works hard for me every day, it bore a beautiful child, and my husband loves it…wants it. This body has been good to me. I should probably be a bit kinder and more accepting of it.
I stepped on the scale today. 200 pounds. Still.
I’m not gonna lie…it makes me ill to know I’ve gained that much weight in the past 10 years. 40 pounds. 40. 4-0. But, I’m not going to hate my body for it. I may be 200 pounds, but I can still pull off sexy. Am I going to accept 200 pounds? No. But, I’m going to love each and every one of them while I am trying to lose them. This is who I am.