I am usually not one for being naked in the light. It might surprise you to know that I’m rather self-conscious about showing myself to others (both physically an emotionally). The anonymity provided by the internet allows me to come out of the shadows and expose myself and my mind to the world. It is freeing…and oh so necessary to my emotional well-being, just as much as solitude can be. This is my quiet way of screaming to the world – I need to be heard, but I don’t want to intrude; here I am, on the floor before you, whispering my truths and baring my soul. I write, because often, speech eludes me. Verbalizing my thoughts seems to make them so heavy they fall into my lap and become mangled versions of their pre-birthed perfection. But, writing them allows them the lightness and time needed to float, as effortlessly as possible, into being.
In talking, shyness and timidity distort the very meaning of my words. I don’t pretend to know anybody well. People are like shadows to me and I am like a shadow. – Gwen John