Naked: A softening perspective

I look at myself in the mirror. Naked. From a distance, there’s an hourglass shape. Upon closer inspection, however, there are all the faults I’m learning to process. The older I get, the more of them I see. But also, the easier they are to accept. My perspective softens with age. And I become more forgiving.

I stopped looking at magazines years ago. But it doesn’t mean I don’t inadvertently compare myself to other women. Constantly. And it shines a huge spotlight on my insecurities. My rather ample behind, my softening midsection, my less than perky breasts.

But, when I’m alone, I can usually look past all of that. And I’m getting better at accepting that Daddy finds all of it attractive. All of it. Which sort of blows my mind. I’m also getting better at dressing for the body that I have rather than the body I wish I had.

Acceptance is half the battle right?

So as I stand naked before the mirror, in the full glow of the bathroom lights, I place a hand beneath each breast to lift them. I let them drop and marvel at how changeable they are. When it’s cold, the nipples pucker and darken to a shade of brown. But they melt in the heat, becoming weighted by the humidity. They grow dark hairs that I constantly pluck out, because I hate them, But the areolas, on a warm day, are a lovely shade of blush  on a background of pale white skin.

And then there are the purple and white stretch marks across my abdomen and hips. There’s nothing I can do about those, besides look past them. Along with my thighs, which have always rubbed together, and will…no matter how much weight I lose.

But there are parts I love. My hands, my eyes, my lips, my skin, my hair.

It helps to look through someone else’s eyes on occasion. So, I asked Daddy to write briefly about HIS image of me. This is the list He came up with:

strong, but prefers to follow me
uber professional at work
closed off
hard to approach
socially not engaged 
an awesome wife
a loving mother
my best friend
inappropriate (you might not say it but you laugh at it when I do)
easily agitated and annoyed
the ability to squirt
your love for masturbation 
your adventurousness and willingness to follow me when your head is in the game 
that you find women as sexy as I do
that you find other men attractive and can tell me.
you will laugh at me when I do something dumb
you are submissive
that you are so literary and well-schooled
that you can make geek jokes and you laugh at crude ones

your green eyes, such pools of jade
your hips, the way they hourglass away from your waist
your full breasts, you are a mom and they are still spectacular
your tattoos
your ass, such a marvel of perfect womanhood
your perfectly shaped asshole
you DON’T have a gut
your shaved pussy is porn quality 

Interestingly, my mind went straight to appearance and body image with this prompt, but his traversed the landscape of personality, character, actions, and appearance. He has a much broader lens to examine me with.

I probably should, too.

Something I also notice is that I gravitate to women’s bodies that are like mine. It’s not that I’m trying to make myself feel better. It’s that I “find them attractive.” All the things that I hate about my own body are the things I love about theirs. How dumb is that?
Here are a few examples…
Both women are beautiful…but get a load of miss Surrey! Not your typical beauty queen. I’m certainly not saying that Miss England is unattractive. But…I’m personally more attracted to the gal on the left. That’s why it’s so odd that I hold myself up to the standard of Miss England here. Why do I want to look like that, when what I think is hot…is not that at all? Bizarre.

And to conclude…me…in all my size 14 glory.


  • Jade A. Waters

    Beautiful! I love how you've pointed out the tendency to go straight to physical, and yet when you asked him, his list was bountiful in the qualities department (with some great items in the physical, too). It's also wonderful to recognize you find shapes similar to yours attractive—not a bad thing at all, and perhaps a sign that subconsciously you're more welcoming of it? Great post! XX-Jade

  • Marie Rebelle

    So fabulous that he made the list for you, that he made you realized that it's not all about the physical, but that you have so many other qualities too 🙂
    Beautiful post!

    Rebel xox

  • Molly

    I really love this post, his list made me smile so much. I might ask my hubby if he will do one for me, I would love to see what he wrote. Have you ever written something like that back at him? It would be fascinating to see what you version about him would look like. I think men need to see and hear those things just as much as women but are often far more reluctant to approach them as it makes them appear to themselves somehow needy and weak and yet, women are not faced with the same internal accusation about that particular thing.


  • Kat

    What a great post. I love the list he made for you and I hope you see all those things in yourself too.
    I agree that the photos of the curvy women are delicious but yes, I too hold myself to the Miss England standard. I wonder why we do this? If I can work THAT out I will be one step closer to accepting myself.
    And by the way, YOUR pic is lovely!
    Kat x

  • Brigit Delaney

    Yes…I started noticing what I liked in women a few years back when we started “swinging.” I found out very quickly that I wasn't just threatened by all those thinner women (though I do fee a twinge of jealousy), I actually found the curvier shapes to be sexier (just my opinion…not to put down thinner women). It was a weird AHA! moment for me – and actually HAS helped me accept my own physical shape more.

  • Brigit Delaney

    I know…it was funny. I was struggling with this post quite a bit, so I asked him to make a list so it might help me or inspire me…lead me in some direction. I was surprised – and a little disappointed with myself for only focusing on the physical attributes. How cliche, eh?

  • Brigit Delaney

    Awww…thanks, Lola! That pic you sent me was totally hot! Nice addition to my morning coffee, really…and I'm sure it will show up in the coming days on my blog…sexy lady. xoxo

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