I never considered myself the spanking type. I’m not much into pain (small amounts in the right situations…you know, hair-pulling, rough sex). But, it’s growing on me, and I’m beginning to understand the need that some people have for serious spanking sessions. That whole “out of body” experience, getting outside of one’s self, can be freeing and cathartic. Some people do it with drugs. Others with alcohol. Still others with physical activity like running or sex. It’s all about the endorphins. Regardless of how you get there, it’s about the build up of tension followed by the intense release.
We all seek it in one form or another. And as I begin to find it in ways outside of alcohol (I can admit that me and wine are pretty close…and gin is a happy third wheel)…mainly through physical activity, and as Daddy and I continue to adapt and find what works best for us, I’m finding that the occasional spanking…that tiny bit of pain…isn’t so much a “bad” thing. There’s intrigue there. There’s just a little fear. A lot of mental build-up. And then a sudden burst of pain followed by release.
The sting…ouch…I can do without (though I don’t always have a choice). A nice solid smack with a hand…the flogger (which expands the pain into more than one place so it’s not so intense)…the pretty pink rose that blooms on the skin afterward. Yeah, I can live with all of that. In fact, at certain moments, I actually find myself craving it.
Plus…he likes it. He likes to smack my ass…he likes to see it turn pink with the shape of his hand. he likes to hear the crack of skin against skin…or spanking implement against skin (whichever). So it’s hard to use it completely as a punishment. For now, it works, because I don’t love it. But, what if it grows on me? Or better yet, what if I begin to want it? What if I start adding it my requests and it comes out sounding like…